"@MarilynMonroeID: If two people are happy together, then leave them to it. It’s THEIR lives."
So i’ve bumped into that tweet while i was on my way out for my reach-out activity this morning. I spared a couple of minutes to browse down my timeline and boom that caught my attention. I can’t help but hit the star button. While i am writing this post, I am currently somewhere downtown with wifi of course thinking things and waiting for my tea to cool down.
I don’t even know why am i even writing this post. Maybe im hoping even if i’ll not tag her she’ll notice it someday. I know this may seem super korneh but the hell with what others will think. Im writing to express because it’s the only way i know i can pour out what i feel.
In connection with the tweet, recently my bestfriend have been busy with stuffs. I know in myself, i got her back always. I know I may be asking too much but sometimes, that feeling of being upset is setting in. Im trying to understand and weighing things out because I also need to be rational. I need to remind myself and think that “this is what she wants, i have to deal with it”. I do understand and i do accept her for who she is. I do accept that there are times she needs to do this and that. Sadly, for the last days i’ve been very irrational and im truly sorry for that. I’ve not been the best friend she could ever ask. (Korny sorry) But sometimes, i get upset of how things are going and that made me a real bitch. Sorry for being that person :( Im sorry that I’ve forgotten those times you’re just at the curb waiting for my meetings to get done. ://
I just wanted to tell her that, i feel so alone walking without someone to talk to. I feel so sad that you rush immediately and im thinking you don’t want my company anymore but hey, thank you for that tweet and it made me realize the things that im supposed to realize. I’ve already told you all those stuffs i wanted to say thus im making this lengthy post. I realized that some things are changing and i must accept those. I feel bad sometimes but i can deal with it. I know forever you’re my best bud. I can’t be upset at you for so long, you’re too lovable lol I can adjust if thats what is needed and just be happy. I’ve realized that you’re still my bestfriend and i should be the one understanding you. I can give you nagging sessions if you want and if necessary. You know i love you to bits n hoping for a stronger friendship ahead!! I know you’re happy so i’ll leave it to you :)
You may laugh at me, im giving you the privelege lol but this made me feel lighter. I’ve been carrying such load for the past few days. I’ve shed a couple of tears and it really restarted my system.
Sometimes, things are changing. You can’t control everything and expect things the way you wanted it to be. I’ve lived a life of organizing what to do next. I realized people aren’t the same with my system thus acceptance and honesty is always the best in this kind of situation.
Xx
PS: no hard feelings :)) i write to express and everything’s cleared out already.
